growing up, expressing and articulating myself has been very difficult, oftentimes what i want to say doesnt come out at all communication is a struggle and getting whats in my brain out of my mouth is easier said than done, especially on the fly

ive always struggled with my emotions, sensitivity to certain feelings, situations and senses, and how i understand myself and understand others it takes me a bit longer to process emotions and information given to me

ive been read as emotionless or robotic from people in the past ive tried my best to fit in and overexpress how i feel im not emptionless, i just struggle to express myself sometimes im wired differently and only began to realize it this year

i internalized those comments, it made me feel like i was broken and needed to be fixed that my stimming or fidgeting movements needed to stop, that i was lazy, that i was unmotivated, that i needed to show more emotion, i tried, i really did

im happy to have found a support system of people who understand, im happy to have found people like me who i can resonate with, im happy for my boyfriend and im happy to have finally started to understand that im not broken, just made a little different and its okay