But, as I grow up, I realized how mediocre I was compared to other artists. Don't get me wrong, comparing yourself to others is NEVER OKAY, but it's also an inevitable feeling and a constant struggle especially when all your life you've always have this thought that you are good.

This makes me realize how other people's words, especially adults could have so much impact and influence on a child. Receiving so much praises back then gave me this superior feeling about myself it makes me think that when someone is better than me, I'm automatically a failure.

It drills you into thinking that to be praised means you have to be if not better, the best. Being competitive is good, it helps you improve and grow. But sometimes, it contributes to the toxic mentality that you have to constantly prove yourself to others to validate yourself.

It's sad and frustrating how at some point in your life you're going to meet someone who's always going to be better than you in something. It makes you think "what's the point of trying? When there's always gonna be someone who's better than me?"

Life will always give you an unequal footing to someone. Even if you think that you've already gave your all, someone will always be doing more than you. And that's okay, we all have different paths to take and it doesn't mean you're losing just because they are ahead of you.